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"It was a battle. The bad overdoing the good. It was living, although most of the time it feels so much like dying. I was empty. Not exactly broken, but not exactly intact either. I was clouded with sad emotions. Always feeling alone. Never good enough. Never worthy. Still, no one understands. Not even one. Because you'll never really know the things I really feel unless you felt them yourself."

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crown-queen-bambee:

ilikelivingintoday:

Kevin Durant talks about his mom during MVP speech.

This made me cry. My Mom is my MVP, she is awesome and just simply amazing.



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flcl-julie:

onlylolgifs:

Have you ever been this worried?

He fucking paws at the water and pulls him toward the edge and fucking jumps in to save him! I love dogs so much. We don’t deserve them.



Posted 6 days ago with 206,854 notes
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wencygirl:

When I Met Love: Mix Tape

Last Valentine’s Day was probably one of my most memorable one yet. Aside from him giving me a bouquet of roses, having dinner with my girlies and playing beer pong with his friends, that was actually the day that my boyfriend and I went “facebook official” (like anyone would call it). But to be honest, we actually go a long way back. We’ve been on this rollercoaster ride of emotions for quite a while already. We’ve seen each other grow and transform, but still our feelings towards one another never changed. Some people would probably be thankful their relationships remain unchanged over time, but I’m not exactly like other people. I’m the person who wants to constantly grow as an individual — which includes altering a few aspects and views in my life as I grow older. I guess what I want is someone who would have the same urge as mine but would still be there for me despite the changes we go through as we experience life. I am thankful that my boyfriend has been that someone for me. Believe it or not, when people ask me all kinds of love, I always picture him. Every time. It feels like I’ve experienced all kinds of relationships with just one person. Through the course of time, what we have also developed just as much as we individually did. We’ve been through so much, which is probably why I feel like one song wouldn’t even come close to summing it all up. So last February 13, I made him a mix tape consisting of the eighteen (it has always been our number) songs that remind me of him and of our relationship.
Because I feel a bit giddy listening again to the playlist, I’d type the lyrics that had the biggest impact on me as to why I chose the songs! Here it goes! ☺
1.  Three Rounds and A Sound // Blind Pilot “Now I see you, ‘til kingdom comeYou’re the one I wantto see me for all the stupid shit I’ve done”
2. A Thousand Years 2 // Christina Perri"Time stands stillBeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anything take awayWhat’s standing in front of meEvery breathEvery hour has come to this”This was actually the background song when we danced on my debut. :)
3. Feels Like Home // Edwina Hayes"A window breaks downa long dark street And a siren wailsin the nightBut I’m alright 'cause I have youhere with me” This is probably the song that best explains how safe I feel whenever I’m with him. I always tell him that he’s my safety net, because he truly is. He calms me down in a way that nobody else can.
4.This I Swear // Nick Lachey"So take my hand and hold on tight And we’ll get there Ohh we’ll get thereThis I swear”
5. For You // Duncan Sheik"it’s an infinite world and I want you”
6. I Won’t Give Up - Jason Mraz”I won’t give up on usEven if the skies get roughI’m giving you all my loveI’m still looking up”
7. Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol"I don’t know where.Confused about how as wellJust know that these thingswill never change for us at allIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with me and just forget the world?”
8. Now That I Found You // Mytown"How can I believe that my heartwould find someone like you?You see the real meNo in-betweens, I had nowhere to hide.You took away the walls around meMade me feel safe to share my truth.”
9. Bless The Broken Road // Rascal Flatts”Now I’m just rolling homeInto my lover’s armsThis much I know is trueThat God blessed the broken roadThat led me straight to you.”
10. Only You Can Love Me This Way // Keith Urban"Well I know there’s a reason And I know there’s a rhyme We were meant to betogether, that’s why.We can roll with the punches We can stroll hand in hand And when I say it’s forever,you understand.” For some reason, we blend so well. I can’t stress this enough. It’s like we’re in this sort of partnership because we work better together than we work alone. I guess that’s why we hardly ever fight. Don’t get me wrong, though. We argue about some things, but in the end we know how to compromise so it doesn’t lead to conflicts. It’s weird because we don’t usually do that in our past relationships (Yes, we’ve talked about it), but we do it with ours. It’s rare.
11. Ours // Taylor Swift"Seems like there’s always someone who disapprovesThey’ll judge it like they know about me and youAnd the verdict comes from those with nothing else to doThe jury’s out, but my choice is youSo don’t you worry your pretty little mindPeople throw rocks at things that shineAnd life makes love look hardThe stakes are high, the water’s roughBut this love is ours” This is the song for the people who tries to break us apart or questions our relationship without knowing the real deal. Yes, pips. This love is ours.
12. Until You // Dave Barnes"Let’s just take our timeThere’s nothing else to doWhat better way to spend the nightWasting air with you”Sometimes we spend bum nights together, and that’s fine with us. We can do absolutely nothing and still be happily comfortable together.
13. So Close // Jon Mclaughlin”We’re so close to reachingthat famous happy end,And almost believing,this one’s not pretend.Let’s go on dreamingfor we know we areso close, so closeand still so far”I like this song a lot because it describes the fact that we’ve gone through so much together and yet we still have a long way to go. We have a long, long journey together, and I like that idea.
14. You Belong to Me // Jason WadeSee the pyramids along the NileWatch the sunrise from a tropic isleJust remember darling all the whileYou belong to meSee the market place in old AlgiersSend me photographs and souvenirsJust remember when a dream appearsYou belong to me” This is the one that I’m talking about awhile ago, how I still want to grow individually (i.e. pursue my dreams) but despite that, I still belong to him.
15. Never Stop // Safetysuit"I’ll never stop tryingI’ll never stop watching as you leaveI’ll never stop losing my breathEvery time I see you looking back at meI’ll never stop holding your handI’ll never stop opening your doorI’ll never stop choosing you babeI’ll never get used to you”I feel like the whole song is actually his song to me. Really. 
16. When You Got A Good Thing // Lady Antebellum”So baby, hold on tight Don’t let go Hold onto the love we’re making Cause baby when the ground starts shaking  You gotta know when you’ve got a good thing”
17. With Me // Sum 41"I want you to know,With everything I won’t let this go.These words are my heart and soul.I’ll hold on to this moment, you know,As I bleed my heart out to show,And I won’t let go.”
18. When I’m With You // Faberdrive “Yeah we’ve had our ups and downBut we’ve always worked them outBabe am I ever glad we’ve got this far nowStill I’m lying here tonightWishing I was by your side'cause when I'm not there enoughNothing feels rightSo I’m coming back to show you thatI’ll love you the rest of my life”This is actually our theme song ever since 2010 which is why it holds a special place in my heart. :)

That’s it, friends. My eighteen songs for him. Check it out here!

wencygirl:

When I Met Love: Mix Tape

Last Valentine’s Day was probably one of my most memorable one yet. Aside from him giving me a bouquet of roses, having dinner with my girlies and playing beer pong with his friends, that was actually the day that my boyfriend and I went “facebook official” (like anyone would call it). But to be honest, we actually go a long way back. We’ve been on this rollercoaster ride of emotions for quite a while already. We’ve seen each other grow and transform, but still our feelings towards one another never changed. Some people would probably be thankful their relationships remain unchanged over time, but I’m not exactly like other people. I’m the person who wants to constantly grow as an individual — which includes altering a few aspects and views in my life as I grow older. I guess what I want is someone who would have the same urge as mine but would still be there for me despite the changes we go through as we experience life. I am thankful that my boyfriend has been that someone for me. Believe it or not, when people ask me all kinds of love, I always picture him. Every time. It feels like I’ve experienced all kinds of relationships with just one person. Through the course of time, what we have also developed just as much as we individually did. We’ve been through so much, which is probably why I feel like one song wouldn’t even come close to summing it all up. So last February 13, I made him a mix tape consisting of the eighteen (it has always been our number) songs that remind me of him and of our relationship.

Because I feel a bit giddy listening again to the playlist, I’d type the lyrics that had the biggest impact on me as to why I chose the songs! Here it goes! ☺

1.  Three Rounds and A Sound // Blind Pilot
Now I see you, ‘til kingdom come
You’re the one I want
to see me for all 
the stupid shit I’ve done”

2. A Thousand Years 2 // Christina Perri
"Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this”

This was actually the background song when we danced on my debut. :)

3. Feels Like Home // Edwina Hayes
"A window breaks down
a long dark street
And a siren wails
in the night
But I’m alright
'cause I have you
here with me”
This is probably the song that best explains how safe I feel whenever I’m with him. I always tell him that he’s my safety net, because he truly is. He calms me down in a way that nobody else can.

4.This I Swear // Nick Lachey
"So take my hand and hold on tight 
And we’ll get there 
Ohh we’ll get there
This I swear”

5. For You // Duncan Sheik
"it’s an infinite world
and I want you

6. I Won’t Give Up - Jason Mraz
I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up”

7. Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
"I don’t know where.
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things

will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me

and just forget the world?”

8. Now That I Found You // Mytown
"How can I believe that my heart
would find someone like you?
You see the real me
No in-betweens, I had nowhere to hide.
You took away the walls around me
Made me feel safe to share my truth.”

9. Bless The Broken Road // Rascal Flatts
Now I’m just rolling home
Into my lover’s arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.”

10. Only You Can Love Me This Way // Keith Urban
"Well I know there’s a reason
And I know there’s a rhyme
We were meant to be
together, that’s why.
We can roll with the punches
We can stroll hand in hand
And when I say it’s forever,
you understand.”
For some reason, we blend so well. I can’t stress this enough. It’s like we’re in this sort of partnership because we work better together than we work alone. I guess that’s why we hardly ever fight. Don’t get me wrong, though. We argue about some things, but in the end we know how to compromise so it doesn’t lead to conflicts. It’s weird because we don’t usually do that in our past relationships (Yes, we’ve talked about it), but we do it with ours. It’s rare.

11. Ours // Taylor Swift
"Seems like there’s always someone who disapproves
They’ll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury’s out, but my choice is you
So don’t you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water’s rough
But this love is ours

This is the song for the people who tries to break us apart or questions our relationship without knowing the real deal. Yes, pips. This love is ours.

12. Until You // Dave Barnes
"Let’s just take our time
There’s nothing else to do
What better way to spend the night
Wasting air with you

Sometimes we spend bum nights together, and that’s fine with us. We can do absolutely nothing and still be happily comfortable together.

13. So Close // Jon Mclaughlin
We’re so close to reaching
that famous happy end,
And almost believing,
this one’s not pretend.
Let’s go on dreaming
for we know we are
so close, so close
and still so far”

I like this song a lot because it describes the fact that we’ve gone through so much together and yet we still have a long way to go. We have a long, long journey together, and I like that idea.

14. You Belong to Me // Jason Wade
See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me
See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me”
This is the one that I’m talking about awhile ago, how I still want to grow individually (i.e. pursue my dreams) but despite that, I still belong to him.

15. Never Stop // Safetysuit
"I’ll never stop trying
I’ll never stop watching as you leave
I’ll never stop losing my breath
Every time I see you looking back at me
I’ll never stop holding your hand
I’ll never stop opening your door
I’ll never stop choosing you babe
I’ll never get used to you

I feel like the whole song is actually his song to me. Really.

16. When You Got A Good Thing // Lady Antebellum
So baby, hold on tight
Don’t let go
Hold onto the love we’re making
Cause baby when the
ground starts shaking
You gotta know
when you’ve got a good thing”

17. With Me // Sum 41
"I want you to know,
With everything I won’t let this go.
These words are my heart and soul.
I’ll hold on to this moment, you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show,
And I won’t let go.”

18. When I’m With You // Faberdrive
Yeah we’ve had our ups and down
But we’ve always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we’ve got this far now
Still I’m lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I’m coming back to show you that
I’ll love you the rest of my life

This is actually our theme song ever since 2010 which is why it holds a special place in my heart. :)

That’s it, friends. My eighteen songs for him. Check it out here!



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unfortunately i’m one of those people that could be pushed by someone countless times and still believe there’s good in them


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wencygirl:

Instagram Lately

1. Capuring the good moments.
2. What I would give for a chill day at the beach.
3. Alas, I’ve been seeking new adventures. Lately my friends and I have been going forth and trying new things. That’s good. I think.
4. Life is always better with a friend.
5. It just occurred to me how vast the universe really is, and that I am just a speck of dust trying to make a name.
6. Oh I need a long, relaxing dip.
7. Been running a lot of errands lately, I feel like I’m always tired.
8. Made a list of the places I’m gonna visit. Now all I have to do is get my ass up and make it happen.
9. When dusk turns to dawn: there’s this battle in the sky between the dark and the bright colors, and the bright color just eats the life out of the dark one. That must be my favorite time of the day. Reminds me so much of bittersweet beginnings.

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wencygirl:

"Love arrives exactly when Love is supposed to, and Love leaves exactly when Love must. When Love arrives, say ‘Welcome! Make yourself comfortable.’ If Love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her. Turn off the music, listen to the quiet. Whisper, ‘Thank you for stopping by.’"

That, my dear friends, is an excerpt from “When Love Arrives” by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye, which is my favorite love poem to date. I found out about it when my College Literature professor played a video (the one attached above) showing the duo perform their piece in front of an audience. The moment I finished watching the recital, I was completely mesmerized. It was surreal.

The thing that awed me the most is how unbelievably accurate the poem is in a way that the lines are expressed through moments, not just words or feelings. At the beginning, it tells us our expectations of love. It brings us back to the time when we established our own idea of what love looks like. But when love came, admit it or not, it was nowhere near how we pictured it to be. Sometimes it grows strong despite us seeing the flaws, sometimes it doesn’t work out, and sometimes it damages us too much that when another love approaches we have no idea how to respond to it. But time heals all wounds, they say. In time a new love that we are prepared to accept will come eventually, and it will be nothing like the old ones. After all, in life there is never the same love twice.

To sum it all up, this wonderful poem tackles the fact that there are different kinds of love: love that stays, love that hurts, love that we didn’t expect and love that we aren’t ready for. But nevertheless, every kind of love that comes in our lives offers us a wonderful time, either it be a short while or a long moment.

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I want you to promise me something. And I don’t care if you don’t know me, like me, or like making promises in general. Just do it.

Promise me that you will keep on living, even when everything is futile.

I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you’ve done. I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you should have done. Forgive yourself, even when you don’t think you deserve it.

I want you to love yourself for all that you are and all that you are not. I want you to love yourself, even if no one else does. You do not need the validation from another human being in order to know your worth. You do not need others to love you in order to show you that you are worth loving. The love that you develop for yourself is more than enough. Love yourself enough to stand on your own, without depending on the love of anyone else.

So stop injecting drugs to avoid reality. Stop with the pills and the cutting. Stop with the thoughts on jumping off a building and hanging yourself. Stop hating yourself and regretting about the past. Stop with the ‘what ifs’ and the ‘should have beens.’ And don’t you dare pull that trigger. Stop.

Stop and love yourself. It is the least you can do for you.

Remy Raine (via remyraine)


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